Priorities & Choices

I know it's been a while - but I'm back.

WTF! 2 years of this bullshit and we are still hashing over the same crap.

So here's tonight's latest bullshit.

I've been sick for almost 2 weeks with bronchitis. My principal told me to stay home from school today. I've been resting and home alone ALL DAY.

He texts me around 5:30 to see how I am and that he is going out for dinner and drinks with co-workers because they had a crazy day. I don't hear back from him until 10PM. At that point I was tired of being home alone and depressed and crying because I feel like once again he is running away from me. I decided to take a drive, wound up at the food and video store.

He texted me during this and was seemingly annoyed that I was out. Eventually he called me, said I didn't sound good, and was dealing with 2 drunk people. He wanted me to go home and sleep, but my meds are making sleeping difficult so I was getting a movie.

I finally hear from him again at 1:00AM. He is still with the 2 drunk people. He says he is going to take them home - so I cut him off at the pass. "Where is home? 2 hours away? Are you going to get there and decided you are too tired to drive home and stay over?" Of course, I was right that was exactly what was going to happen.If he doesn't stay over he would HAVE to get up in the morning to pick them up to bring them back to their cars. WHAT? If you're going to bring them home let them put their tail between their legs and find a relative or friend bring them to their cars in the morning. Again this is not his responsibility. He got defensive talking about how he didn't want to fight with me cause he's been fighting with people all day. I told him that I was not trying to fight with him, but I was not happy and upset about the situation that he has gotten himself in again.

What type of people are they who allow themselves to get so drunk they can't drive? How irresponsible. Who do they think he is by taking advantage of his good nature and knowing that he would feel obligated to take care of them. Also, how did this wind up being his responsibility. He knew they were drunk at 10PM, he could have made different choices throughout the entire evening that would have kept him out of this situation.

(1) He could have come after dinner to his sick wife. (but he got stuck watching the game)
(2) He could have asked me if I wanted to watch the game with him, whether at home or out. He says that I never expressed interest in the game and that I said I was tired and not well. Regardless, he never thought of me.
(3) He could have left at 10PM when he knew I was already sad and they were already drunk.
(4) He could drop them off at the hotel across the street where they could get a room and deal with their idiocy by themselves and he could come home.

Then he wants to tell me not to get upset or to be angry. HOW CAN I NOT? First, I gave him very logical options of things he could have done and could still do. But to ask me to not get upset? THat is assinine (sp). I should be his priority. I should be the one he is taking care of - NOT this morons. This is not the first time he has been in this position. And the bottom line is that it is a position that he has ALLOWED himself to be in.

WHere are his priorities? His wife or these immature irresponsible people? What was he thinking when he was making these choices? I know what he wasn't thinking about - me, his wife. How is this supposed to make me feel? How am I supposed to react? To me his actions prove that he does not care about me, and he really doesn't love me. I mean what else does this pan out to be? How else would this make me feel? This is not right. This is just wrong. I want to pound his head in. I want to beat the shit out of him. When do I get to be taken care of? When I do become a priority? When does your decision making process include thinking about me and my feelings?

Now 1:30AM he is coming home. Maybe he dropped the ho-bags off at a hotel or left them sleeping in their car.